fire

He's still awake tonight.


I just realised, i think i've got flu. Talk about irony.

Anyway, got the photos, met debbie for dinner.


She reminded me of two things, of how much i want to grow spiritually and that fire and exuberance i used to have. What benji calls passion and potential, what nadine call spunk and madness. You know, that fire they've seen, it's dying. I dont know when, i dont know how, but it's dying. I no longer feel as willing to go the distance. I think it's all the disappointments. Making things seem so not worthwhile. Maybe. Just maybe.


God, i dont want to disappoint. No matter how much people have done to me. Because i will not be like them. This life, i live for you. God, please, that you may rekindle my fire and strengthen my will.